[Dean]

Sorry it happened. While they were not personal friends, I was the event master for the Virginia City Hill Climb where the Viper went off and resulted in a double fatality. While that can't compare to losing a close freind, I was so closely involved with the recovery, investigation and meeting with the families that it had a huge impact on me, so I can only imagine what you are going through.

I would encourage you to discuss this with someone close to you and/or the clergy, counselor of your choice. Talking about it can help you to begin to heal. It may never make sense, and will likely be with you forever, but there are only positive things that can come from talking to someone about it.